the good, the bad and the ugly!

No I am talking about a movie,

(one of my favorites!)

but about life.

In 2 weeks, the kids and I will take a long trip

to France, we are so excited!

It has been almost 4 years since

we visited last,

4 years without seeing Grandmothers,

uncle, aunt, cousins and friends,

and 3 years without seeing my parents,

a really long time!

(we do talk on the phone 2-3 times a week)

(St Malo and my favorite beach)

So where are the bad and the ugly?

Well because of the ugly part,

my parents will not travel to Provence

and bring back fabric,

I know I have a hard life,

I need to keep laughing at little things!

The really ugly part is my grandmother's health,

last year I wrote about her 40+ years fight with cancer,

well the winter has been really hard, she just spent 2 weeks

at the hospital, and found out that her cancer has now

spread to her kidney, lungs and back bone.

Her doctors have just given her weeks to live,

 I know they are doing their best to keep her comfortable

and I know she is fighting to stay here and see me one more time.

This is just not the way she wanted to see the kids and me,

she had been working hard on her garden

so that Miss C. would steal all her strawberries,

so that we would spend some silly time together....

I just hope now that we can make it on time.

To keep me from thinking too much,

(and crying)

I am sewing, it seems to ease the sadness,

after all my grandmother was a country seamstress.